Today marks my one year anniversary of being a New Yorker. It’s snowing outside, just like it did the day I moved in. I remember it so clearly, I remember how absolutely exhausted I was from packing so suddenly and not sleeping because of my nerves. Making this move felt like the worst decision I was ever going to make - and everything I had ever wanted in life was wrong. But it wasn’t. My sudden choice to pack up my life and move North was right, and although I didn’t know it at the time - making the move was leading up to the most important year of my life.
Looking back at who I was one year ago is interesting, it’s like the person I was before is a total stranger. I find myself wondering where I managed to find the courage to even move, where the strength to leave my comfortable life in Virginia came from, and who that girl even was.
I know that deep down - I’m still that person. I know I can do all of those things, obviously, because I’ve done them twice. I know that I’m a badass warrior princess, but thinking back to making this move just seems so not me.
In the last year I’ve learned so much about myself. I’ve learned that I like a lot of weird food that I never had the chance to eat in Virginia. I’ve learned that I can actually be patient if I set my mind to it. I learned that I’m just as shy as I was in high school. I learned to be independent.
I also learned that New York City wasn’t what I thought it would be. It’s easy to imagine a bright, magical, clean, friendly NYC (I’m looking at you, mommy bloggers!) but it’s not, at all. In fact - it’s the complete and total opposite. This is okay with me, and I embrace the grittiness of this wild city. It makes anywhere else I’ve ever been feel so boring. A tiny part of me believes that once you live in New York - it’s impossible to move anywhere else.
New York has brought on so many amazing opportunities that I never in a million years thought I’d have. I somehow managed to snag a really incredible job (shout out to Squarespace!) My boyfriend and I live together and it’s fun 100% of the time, I’m not hungry anymore, and I feel good - like, finally I feel really good. You know how they say “once you make it in New York, you can make it anywhere.” Well, y’all - I’ve made it, and I never want to make it anywhere else than this crazy city.
In other words - I love New York. I think it may love me back, too.